self image - the dreaded blog post
i’ll admit, i’ve struggled with self image for most of my life. but honestly, i don’t know anyone who hasn’t. i know we’ve had something about ourselves that we’re a little self-concious about; whether it’s our height, our hair, our eyes, or our weight. there’s always that one thing that someone will point out once in public school and since then, you’ll always remember that one comment when you get ready in the morning and when you change into your pyjamas and go to bed at night. you can’t run from it, and no matter how many compliments you may get about something, if someone else has made a comment about it, you’ll take the comment over the compliment.
since when is that okay?
i may be speaking to the choirs, but i’m also speaking to myself. i think i’ve had issues with every part of my body, believing that i wasn’t “up to standards” with everyone else. but that’s a lie. all the negativity you’re believing about yourself, you’re wrong. it’s a lie. it’s all one big lie.
as soon as i completed my semester and came home for the summer, i was having one of those moments where i sat and cried on my bed, in my room. i was overtired. being overtired leads to your mind goes in a thousand and three directions, and this time wasn’t any different. i was thinking about my weight in-particular, and i was just fed up. so, in that moment, i asked myself, “what in the world am i doing?” i’m sitting on my bed, complaining about something that i’m not even trying to change.
needless to say i started exercising the next day. and the day after that. and the day after that one too. three weeks later, and i’m still going. i feel better about myself, because i know that i’m doing something to fix my mental state of how i perceive myself, and ultimately feeling better about who i am.
during one of my runs last week, i had what i thought was the most thought provoking thing,
“you can sit and mope around, or you can find that one thing you love about yourself and embrace it.”
instead of focusing on all the things you may not like about yourself, you need to focus on the one thing you love. you need to find that one thing and embrace it. once you do, your view of yourself will change.
and i know this doesn’t change the negative words that may have been spoken over you once, twice, or hundreds of times, but it does silence them. you can only let those words hang on for so long. once you understand your worth, nothing can stop that. nothing can stop you.